Disordered

The title pretty much sums it up...

I have had a realization of sorts today... my priorities are not in order. So I'm using this post to sort them out...

Priorities BEFORE my realization

1. Lilly
2. ME
3. family
4. bills
5. having fun
6. friends

Take a moment to look at this and notice that I've been messing up lately. For example look at number 2 and then look at the bottom... messed up, I know.

I've been worrying more about myself than my family or friends... granted Lilly will always be my #1 but my family and friends should have been higher up on my list. especially above myself. because even if i'm not taking care of myself, a loving and caring family and group of friends can get you through just about anything.

if your wondering where all this is coming from here it goes, It took ONE text message from a friend of mine to make me stop and think "what are you doing? this is one of your best friends and you haven't had the common courtesy to stop and call her in the past 2 weeks just to see how things have been?" because if i had done that i would have known that i had a friend in need, but my head has been up my butt lately and i need to take 2 seconds to pull it out and take a look around.

I've been worrying too much about myself and not about what really matters in the end.

lately its been...

I wanted to go swimming
I wanted to go have fun

I wanted to go workout
I wanted to stay home
I...
I...
I!

I have so many friends in the same boat as me with this deployment and I seem to forget that at times. If I'm feeling lonely chances are one of them is also feeling lonely, so why not pick up the phone and ask them to hang out or work out or something... ANYTHING?

These are the things that have been on my mind since I got that text this morning.

So I'm re-prioritizing... and here it is

AFTER my realization

1. Lilly
2. Family
3. Friends
4. Me
5. Bills
6. Having fun  

(don't get me wrong i love to have fun as long as everything else is taken care of)

And to my friend who sent me that text... 

if your reading this...

I really am sorry

Thursday 5

And the words of the week are...

lets see if I can come up with five things that have been....

Dazzling

Spectacular

Terrific

Perfect

Ecstatic

1. Lillian is simply Dazzling lately... every day she is doing new things and I am Dazzled by how quickly she learns

2. I'm really hoping to look Spectacular for Mr. W's return ;)

3. We have had some pretty Terrific weather here lately... nice and warm but not too hot (not yet anyways)

4. Mr. W is my Mr. Perfect ♥

5. I'm Ecstatic at the prospect of possibly seeing my hubby this weekend at the VTC.

Sun. Burnt.

So this past Friday I took Lilly to go swimming at a friends house... it was a beautiful sunny day which I knew meant we would both need sunscreen... I put some on Lilly every 30-60 minutes and I put some one before we went do to the pool... keep in mind this was 50 SPF lotion. We were out for about 3-ish hours.

We got back to her place I took one look in the mirror when I was changing and I was BURNT... i looked like a dang lobster!

Lilly was only a little pink on the tip of her nose and her right cheek.

This is my sunburn... 3 days later (today)

Thank goodness for Aloe! Its days like this I wish Mr. W were here to rub it on my back in all those painful yet hard to reach places :(

Thursday 5

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I found this on flip flops and combat boots and thought that it was a pretty cool concept...so here it goes...

These are the five things that have been...

Delicious

Exciting

Awesome

Rewarding

Priceless

Today me and a friend had some Chinese food for dinner and it was Delicious because I hadn't had Chinese in a while.

I'm looking forward to and Exciting weekend with my friends. There will be shopping and a trip to the zoo for the kids.

After a nice long swim with a friend and our girls (did some laps) and a walk (over a mile long) I'm feeling Awesome.

Seeing my daughter learn and grow everyday is so Rewarding.

Having such loving and great friends, family, husband, and daughter is Priceless

RnR

Prepare yourselves folks.... its gonna be a long one.

So I haven't blogged lately because Mr.W was home for RnR and I was spending what time I had with him and Lilly rather than posting. I'm sure you all can understand that.

Anyhow... here it goes...

Mr. W called me on Monday March 21st from Atlanta telling me he would be landing that night... this is after i didn't hear from him the whole day before because unknowingly to me he was traveling... so while Lilly was down for her nap I packed up the car and got everything ready to go. At around 8:30 p.m. Lilly and I headed to the airport! As soon as I saw Mr. W all I could do was smile. I was so happy and relieved to have him home. We hugged and kissed and all that jazz and then headed to a hotel for the night.

Mr. W seemed to amazed at how much our little girl has grown in the 6 months that he was away. he could barely take his eyes off of her. And of course she slept in bed with us that night for the first time since she was about 3 months old.

The next day we started our trip up to Michigan with a lovely breakfast at IHOP

after that we hit the road and didn't stop until we hit Illinois. And it started again the next day we passed through Chicago and then Milwaukee. Once we hit Green Bay the weather got all poopy so we had to slow down, which caused us to get into town alot later than we had hoped, but we were just happy to make it home.

 The next few days where spent with our family and planning Lilly's first birthday party, which was so much fun!

The next week we spent as much time with our family as possible until we had to leave which proved difficult at time when they had to return to work, but the time we did have was great. We even had an early Easter since Mr.W will be missing it this year/has missed all the other holidays this year. We had a Ham dinner and even made Lilly an Easter basket and Mr.W helped her with her first ever Easter egg hunt!!!

On Sunday Morning we started our drive back down to Louisiana. It was a fun drive though. we did alot along the way. We stopped at Lambeau Field hoping to see their new super bowl trophy but sadly it was not on display yet. But we went and did a stadium tour and even got Lilly a new little Packers jersey! Our last stop in Wisconsin was at Mars Cheese Castle...

The Next stops were in Illinois. We stopped at Gurney Mills right outside Chicago to eat at the Rainforest Cafe. We thought Lilly would enjoy seeing all the animals, but I think she might have been a little scared of them. After that we drove into Chicago and went up into the John Hancock Building.

We ended up stopping that night because the weather was looking bad but the next day we continued our drive into St. Louis and stopped to check out the St. Louis Gateway Arch. It was pretty cool but I'm not gonna lie I was scared half to death when were where up at the top. It was a somewhat windy day which means that the arch was moving, it wasn't alot but it still freaked me out! After we came back down from the top we went to the little museum in the building at the bottom, and then let Lilly walk around in the park outside and stretch her legs...

After St. Louis we stopped at a mall to look for some shoes for Mr. W. sadly we didn't find any that he liked. Then we stopped for dinner and then drove through the night to arrive back at the house at about 6:30 a.m. we slept until 11 went and saw some friends and then headed back home for some family time before Mr.W had to leave the next morning.

The next morning we woke up and Mr. W finished packing up his stuff and we headed back to the airport to say our see you soon's and then off he went... again. It was sad but it was a little easier this time because I know that he will be home before we know it, this deployment is about half way over, so we are just hoping the second half goes by just a quickly as the first half did. I'm just thankful that he was able to be here for our daughter's first birthday and that we got to make more memories to share and hold onto while we are apart.

See you soon babe,

Be Safe,

We love you!